Merry Christmas!!!

I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas with their loved ones!!! You all deserve it!!

Wah Wah Wah....

Well, I have been busy!! I started my new job about a week ago and it has kept me very occupied! In a way its so awesome, I am getting paid once a week and working forty plus hours a week, its nice, but long!! Its also bad in a way. I don't have proper shoes yet, so my feet are in constant pain now!! Ow... Its been nice though because now time just flies by, just what I need now! I have nine bsrn, so I'm going to get as much as I can as soon as I can!! I'm gonna start saving for school, I just want to be an Interior Decorater already!!! Rg its all I want haha!
Its a little weird though, I am not used to working this hard! Even though all I do when I work is sit there and be bored, I stand in one place pretty much for nine hours, and have nowhere to sit, its a pretty easy job, it just calls for a lot of endurance! The people are super nice though, I really like them a lot!! I'm grateful for where I am now, I have been waiting so long to get where I am and I am not going to let anything spoil it, even though things such as missing my ex try to get in the way, it will be all worth it in the end (hopefully!) All I can say is we will see!!!
Peace

Cant wait

for the thoughts to stop. Cant wait to work so much that I don't have time to think. Halle-frickin-luah. Cant wait for everything to work out that I have wanted to for so long. Cant wait to sleep. Why cant I sleep? I'm so tired. Shhhhhhhhhhhoot. Coulda been something else. Night folks.

Gravity

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love.

Sara Bareilles "Gravity"

Singularity....

So I am officially single. Its been 3 days. We went on a break about 2 weeks and a couple days ago, but I just broke it off three days ago. I miss Tate, but it's for the best, we just were not right for each other, and it needed to happen. Yep.

My Band...

Oh yeah, its happened!! I have a band! haha kidding, i found this thing on a random website so I thought I would try it out!



So my Band's name is Redmon

My Album Name is Our Own Unique Way

And finally, my album picture is this...

Ah-Ha!!

Well, I will no longer be a teenager tomorrow!! I am officially turning 20 on July 29th!! EEP I am so excited!! Plus, to add onto the excitement, I have the best boyfriend in the world!! This time in my life is a very good one, I'm glad I could be blessed with it :)
I found this book online on this website called Rotating Corpse, its really cute, I hope you like it!!

Please don’t promise me forever.
I want us to love each other
One day at a time…
…And string all those days together
like the precious things they are
instead of trying too hard and promising too much.

Please don’t expect me to always
Be good and kind and loving.
These are times when I will be cold
And thoughtless
And hard to understand.

But it will only be because of the weather
Or the flu
Or one of my moods…
… not because I love you less.
Please Remember that.

Please don’t think about all the things
That could happen to us.
Don’t think about other people
Coming between us.
Don’t think about outgrowing
Each other or growing out of love.

Please do think about all the good things
That could happen to us.
Think of growing closer to each other,
Finding new reasons for being together.
And think of loving.
I will, too.
I am right now.

Please don’t get mad at me
If I forget your birthday
Or some special day we share.
Please remember
That there is an ‘everydayness’
About what we have
That is beyond birthdays
And anniversaries.

That’s why, sometimes,
I may not remember one special day,
Because all our days are special
To me.


Ok, its really long!! To see the rest of it, go to http://www.rotatingcorpse.com/dear_diary/please-dont-promise-me-forever/3027.html. Its a really awesome book, it even has awesome 70's outfits and pictures!!! Please read it!!

Well Well Well

I needed to post another post here, because the Relient K video is huge and it covers up everything!So the concert was awesome, I took my little sisters with me, and they loved it! we all got shirts, which are all awesome! I was so happy we were able to go to this concert!!
So its been about a month, and I have not heard from my missionary yet, I'm hoping this letter didnt get lost in the mail too, if it did, i will be so mad! this will have been the second letter lost. I just hope he has to wait for a picture to develop to send to me or something.. thats what im hoping for!! any ways, peace out

I LOVE RELIENT K!!

I recently went to my all time favorite band, Relient K's concert! They were AMAZING!! We were pretty close, but here its my very favorite song "Be My Escape" Enjoy!!!

Validation

Oh my heck this video is so freaking awesome, it totally makes me smile!!

My little brother's growin up!!

Aah my little brother graduated today! Its so freaking crazy!! He is growing up, and I just don't even know what to say! I love you so much Skyler! This is the beginning of the rest of your life brotha!!!!!

I love just getting lost in your thoughts and being happily suprised by some of the things that come up... :)

I think I blog too much...

Well, root canal tomorrow, 9 am. Also, my main picture here, one of the happiest days of my life :) Thats all!

Pink Eye and Contemplation

Well, I have pink eye. I have for about 3 days now, and let me tell you, it truly is an utter frustration! Thankfully, I can now open my eye in most places, except those that are super bright. I think I am about at the end of it all, Hallelujah! The intense tearing and itching is mostly gone, I got a shot and a bunch of meds, its utterly fantastic! I decided I'm going to be more positive on my blog, I seem to get pretty negative here sometimes! Well, I don't really have any other thoughts at the moment, so, until next time, Colloquio a voi presto!

Hmmm... I'm upset.

Well, guess what time it is?! Time to put Savannah in tons of PAIN! No, really, that's what it is. Ok, let me start my story at the beginning. In October of last year, i went to a dentist down in Orem, because I didn't have time to go up to Ogden to my normal dentist. They were just supposed to fill a couple cavities, on the left bottom of my mouth, there were like two cavities, well one small one, and another one that had a deep cavity on the top and the side. Well, anyways, so I go to this dentist, and they supposedly fill everything and whatnot. Well, about 3 weeks ago, I went to my regular dentist, a nice family doctor, really good and very friendly, and they tell me that the dentist in Orem did not fill the whole cavity. They only filled the top of the cavity and not the side part, which was super deep. They told me they did!! So I had to go to another branch of this other dentist and have them look at it to see they didn't do what they said they did. Well, this dentist was excuses, excuses, excuses! His excuses as to why they didn't fix my tooth ranged from, 'oh well, they probably couldn't see all they needed to fix on a copy of the x-ray,' when I had brought in the original x-ray that first time, to, Oh, these cavities could have formed from October to now, there is no way to prove they were there before,' when they were... ON THE X-RAY! Damn dentists. So today, I went into my normal dentist to get my cavities filled just to find out that the deep cavity is now a DAMN ROOT CANAL!!! Oh hell yeah, I'm pissed.

If you think living on water is simple, read this?

Haha don't ask me what the title meant here... I have a simple assignment for those of you who read my blog! I think when I get married, I have found my wedding song haha! Look up 'When You Say You Love Me' by Josh Groban. Its so sweet and I just love it, I couldnt find a good video to embed here, so just look it up and maybe you will understand why I love it!

Thinking Some More.... Also, I'm bored, so I don't have anything else to do other than drown in my own thoughts

For those of you who have found "the one" or at least "someone," I want you to think back with me. Do you remember all the little things? Like, when you first realized you loved that someone, or when you first lost your breath when they looked at you? Do you remember the small things? The funny things? Like, when you would watch fireworks, and they would make their hand the shape of a gun, and pretend to shoot the sky, and, just as they pull the trigger, a firework explodes? Do you remember? Do you remember when they refused to let you pay for anything, even though you knew they didn't have very much money themselves? Sometimes the small things are what keeps a person sane. Do you remember when you realized they were "the one?" Do you remember that fluttery feeling in your stomach as you watched them walk over to you from across the room, realizing that they loved you too? Do you remember thinking how impossible everything seemed? Do you remember wondering how you ever got such a wonderful person as this? I mean, wondering how it was possible that this person could feel the same way about you as you feel about them. Those of you who have that person know what I mean.
All that matters are the small things, cherish every single one, for they are each precious in their own special way, and may help you get through hard times. The key word here is REMEMBER. Remember how you felt when you first saw them. Remember the times you would play Rockband, and they would be so focused on the drums, but you kept losing focus when singing, because you couldn't stop staring at that person.

Do you remember?

And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time

Well, I don't know how many of you are following along with my blog, but I will update you on my life. I have now lived at home for almost a week. I will not lie to you when I say it has been taking some getting used to. My family is utterly fantastic, I love them so so much. I don't really know how else to say it other than this, my family is utter chaos! I love it though, I would absolutely never have it any other way!! I miss my friends in Orem though, I feel like they are going on with their lives without a second thought of me, well, most of them. Its pretty sad when you thought they would be freaking out and texting you saying how much they miss you, just to find out they don't, or if they do, they don't care enough to find out. Maybe I am just being pessimistic, but thats how it feels to me lately. I think I need to get out and play with friends!! I'm going crazy just sitting around home all day everyday.
I painted my room orange!! It looks so good!! When its all cleaned I will take a picture and put it up, it looks super fabulous! I had a really fun time designing my room, it was a party haha, except for when I painted my room, I did it backwards and I just did a really fast job and there are orange spots all over my ceilings, baseboards and everywhere else it isn't supposed to be orange!! Yeah... I gotta fix that!!
Thats pretty much my life... Its super lame right now, I have no where to go, and nothing to do, because I still don't have a job, oops! Hmmm... I can't think of anything else to write at the moment, but I will be back with more news!! Sorry this has been such a whiny page haha, I had a lot to whine about I guess!!!
Peace Out.

Home missing my Home

Well, Its official. I have moved home. Its fun and all, because I get to see my family, they are my favorite people! However, at the moment, I'm really missing my home away from home, Orem. I hope everything works out up here, I know I moved up here for a reasonm I just have to find out what that reason is I guess, wish me luck! I Miss my boy! Jeremy is still in Peru, and I think he tried calling me today, and I totally MISSED the call! Im super depressed about it...
Also, I miss my missionary Elder Lippert. All I want is to hear from him! Is that so hard to ask!?
Anyway, thats my rant...

Sometimes I stumble upon some cool stuff :)

Some of my friends call me a Hopeless romantic. I love looking up and finding cute love quotes and honestly, where would we be without love?
I found this quote as I was looking around on the internet, I especially like the last part.
“One of my philosophy professors lectured wildly about love once, yelling: “When you’re in love with someone, that person is the lighthouse of your universe.” (I scrawled it inside Science and Poetry in pencil—lighthouse of your universe—as if I would ever forget that phrase.) He was a delightful caricature of his position. I could swear he literally tore his hair out while howling at us. He went on, “Nothing means as much without that person.”
One of the men in the class repeated, incredulous, half-laughing “so you’re saying you can’t enjoy, like, a vacation, without someone if you’re really in love with them?”
“Of course not.” the professor replied. “Not completely. You recognize beauty, but beauty means less if they don’t witness it with you. Beauty is less. You see something sublime and your first thought is that they should be there with you. It’s not as good without them. They illuminate. They make everything more.”

How the hell am i supposed to wait?

Oh hey!

Well, I tried to use the blogger on my phone and for every page I text, it shows as a different post on my page... weird! Anyway, so its been a while! My hair is now in the process of going back blonde, hallelujah! I got a blonde weave so its mostly blonde but the brown is still kind of there, I actually really like my hair like this, its super cute!!
Allergies started yesterday... Dun Dun DUN!! My nose has been runny all day long and I think I have allergenic pink eye, don't worry, its not contagious! Its completely miserable! My eye will have spasms where I cant open it it hurts too much, and it keeps watering, I am wearing my glasses because contacts would be horrible!! I am just hoping that my allergy medicine starts working better or I might be sad :(
Also, I got the worst sunburn!! Its mostly faded now and it doesnt hurt as bad today, but I went and laid out with Eliza and Carolyne and kind of fell asleep for a bit and the back of my legs and the front of my arms were so burnt!! It was really pathetic, any time anyone looked at me, they would just say, aw savannah! that looks so painful!! It actually was extremely painful, especially on my legs, because it was the whole leg, and when I would walk or sit down, it would hurt so bad!! It was terrible!
So, I only have like a week left in my job and 8 days in Orem... I'm excited/sad, I am going to miss my friends so much!! I have so many wonderful friends, including everyone I work with and live with... I am just going to miss them all so much!!!!!! I don't know what I'm going to do up in Ogden, I mean, I'm excited to move back with the fam, but things are going to be so so so different, and I just hope I can adjust! I don't really even have that many friends or anything up there, just my high school friends, and they were ok, but I would much rather play with my peeps down in Orem! It will be very sad, but it will be a fun change at the same time I guess!
Wow, sorry this is kind of a whiny blog, I just have a lot I can whine about I guess haha!! Well, I guess until next time...
Savannah!

Can you see me?

Well, I can now deem myself completely unrecognizable. I recently dyed my hair brown and got contacts. For those of you who cant tell from these pictures, I had blond hair and glasses. Its a pretty big change, not going to lie to you! I like the brown hair, but I'm not quite used to the contacts, I don't know if i like myself in them or not. I think I just look weird with them, I guess I will get used to them! :) I honestly don't know how this came to be!
I finally heard from my missionary!! I was so happy! In one of the letters I wrote him, I gave him my email address, just because I was desperate to hear from him, and he emailed me! I was so freaking excited! No joke!
Well, until next time, au revoir!

Hmmm...

Well, Im tired of it. Tired of it all. Im sick of being single, sick of seeing my friends get in relationships after breaking up with former boyfriends the day before. Why can't that ever happen to me? Is there something wrong with me?
The other day, the roommates in question were single. As we were sitting in my room talking, one of them had the nerve to say she missed having someone. How does she think i feel? I have never, ever had a real, true and good relationship. I want someone I know cares for me, and will be there to hold me when I am having a bad day... Is that so hard to ask? I don't understand why my roommates are so capable of doing what they do.
If anyone cares to explain this to me, let me know...
thanks.
Savan