Can you see me?

Well, I can now deem myself completely unrecognizable. I recently dyed my hair brown and got contacts. For those of you who cant tell from these pictures, I had blond hair and glasses. Its a pretty big change, not going to lie to you! I like the brown hair, but I'm not quite used to the contacts, I don't know if i like myself in them or not. I think I just look weird with them, I guess I will get used to them! :) I honestly don't know how this came to be!
I finally heard from my missionary!! I was so happy! In one of the letters I wrote him, I gave him my email address, just because I was desperate to hear from him, and he emailed me! I was so freaking excited! No joke!
Well, until next time, au revoir!

Hmmm...

Well, Im tired of it. Tired of it all. Im sick of being single, sick of seeing my friends get in relationships after breaking up with former boyfriends the day before. Why can't that ever happen to me? Is there something wrong with me?
The other day, the roommates in question were single. As we were sitting in my room talking, one of them had the nerve to say she missed having someone. How does she think i feel? I have never, ever had a real, true and good relationship. I want someone I know cares for me, and will be there to hold me when I am having a bad day... Is that so hard to ask? I don't understand why my roommates are so capable of doing what they do.
If anyone cares to explain this to me, let me know...
thanks.
Savan

One reason being a girl sucks... actually i could think of more than one, but here is one-

Girls are Pathetic! Agree?
I bet after reading what i have to say, you might just agree with me, and if you are a boy, you might learn something. The lesson today is titled: Girls don't know what they want.
From personal experience, I have now learned this lesson. Let me elaborate. I have a good friend whose name is Mike. I met Mike when I moved to Orem, UT a year and a half ago. I lived with my grandparents and he lived with his stepdad, but we were in the same ward. When I met him, I actually had a big crush on his friend Billy. Billy is a Polynesian boy, who is currently serving his mission in Peru. When I met him, however, I had a huge thing for him, and disregarded Mike. I mean, we were friends, but I would rather have hung out with Billy instead. Anyway, after about 3 months of living with my grandparents, something occured where I moved out. I didn't see Mike for quite a while, but often wondered how he was doing. If I had to guess, I would say I had not seen him for about 6 months or so. I saw him for the first time in a while at an institute dance, and I was so excited! I had not seen him in forever! So we caught up and talked and planned to hang out. About a week later, we went on a motorcycle ride up Provo Canyon, and he made me late for work! I was ok with it though, I had fun! Last Wednesday, my friends and I went to a bonfire, called the 'True Wolverine' bonfire. To become a true wolverine, you had to kiss someone in the center of four huge fire pits. Mike happened to be there and he told me we should go out there, and, wanting to become a true wolverine, actually, all I wanted was to kiss someone, haha oops, I went in the middle and kissed Mike. The next night, we went to the basketball homecoming game, and he was there. After the game, we hung out, and he didnt leave 3 am, at this time, we had started to cuddle a bit while watching Family Guy. My roommates all say we would be cute together, but all of the sudden, he is texting me everyday, which I guess I should expect, and now I'm not interested anymore. I try to lie and say I'm doing things when he texts or calls, but that is getting harder and harder. That is the main reason I think girls are pathetic. We absolutely have no idea what we want. Whatsoever.

I love my life WODES!!!!!

This is Me and Ashley brushing our teeth and playing with stuff

From left to right: Lauren, Me, Derek, Ashley's guitar, haha best photo shoot EVER!!!

Ryan and Derek Eating fun stuff and posing!

Me and my good buddy Corey, we da pimp woah woah woah!

Ashley, Jason, Me, we are so freaking awesome, you don't even know, I understand if you are jealous, it is totally ok, everyone else is :)

I LOVE MY FREAKING LIFE  YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW!! 

Clarification.

I made a comment about my missionary in my blog earlier, about wishing I could see him again. I would like to clarify one thing, I am so glad he is out, I have never seen anyone so excited to do anything, it is his calling in life right now, to be out there serving. In fact, the reason we never really dated was because he didn't want to think twice about leaving because he had a girl, and i wouldn't want it any other way, to tell you the truth. While he is out there, he will grow and become an even better man than I know him to be now. Just wanted to clarify that point :)

Things on my mind.....

I have a lot of things on my mind lately, I don't know who else to pawn it off on or who else to tell, I just need to say things that people always tell me the same things to.
"Move out, get a change in your life"
"Tell them how you feel"

Things like that are what I hear from people a lot of the time. My life is what could be classified as the "classic Mormon college life" I dont drink or smoke, but i go dancing at least twice a week and I never go to bed before midnight, or even one. I do crazy things that I will probably look down on as I get older, I think that is part of college life, is it not?
I feel strange saying this, but I feel like there are some definite changes that have been made in my life, I am more nonchalant about things that would have bothered me in high school, I feel I am not as 'sunshiny' as I used to be, I'm not as happy as I used to be, it disturbs me very much. Lately, I have been trying to be more spiritual, like reading my scriptures or praying, but its so hard to keep that going, I always have things I would rather be doing, haha, once again, the crazy college life. Honestly though, I miss what my life used to be like, I felt so much better in high school, no worries, I was doing the right thing, my bishop told his friends about what a good kid I was, now I just feel like I am not doing anything noteworthy with my life, and I really really miss it. It makes me kind of sad...
About a month and a half ago, I sent off a missionary I care very much about, and I have really been missing him, more than usual, I really do miss him, we write letters at least every two weeks, once a week when he isn't busy, but I really just wish I could at least see him. When I see him, its like I forgot how to breathe, and all I can do is stare. Ah!! Really, I just can't breathe around him and I feel so giddy no matter what after I see him. I just miss him and hope the following year and 11 months go by quickly :)
Sometimes, you wonder what it would take for your life to be back to normal, feeling good about how you are living your life, as my friends say, I am the "best mormon" of our little clan, and I guess its really hard to live that up, especially when you know your friends are not living the way they should...
Dont even worry though, I will figure everything out, just you wait :)

I guess I will start by saying this....

HOW YA DOIN?? I think that is a good start to any sentence, dont you? I sure do!! So, I moved!! I moved to the other side of my complex, with some other friends.... I miss my old roommates like crazy, but I like the people I live with now too! Honestly, I miss my old roommates so much though!!! Its sad, it really is!! We still hang out a freaking ton, which is good!!! I'm glad!!!
Anyway, change of subject... My dear friend and longtime crush, we will just call him Dan, has just left on his mission yesterday. I already miss him a freaking ton!! We are going to write, but I will still miss him a lot!! He is going to one of the coolest places ever though!! He is going to be serving in Milan, Italy!! Yeah. How freaking cool is that?? I know, be jealous! I am too! But anyway, just thought I would say hello!!